The Edge Of Fear...

When I feel the pain...
When I feel I'm down and out it all..
I just want to give my dreams that I've tried so hard to keep..
Every time I feel that there's so much I lack in so many ways..
I lost strength in my legs and then I fall down to ground so hard..

Everyday I hang on..
I tell myself " It'll be alright in the end "...
But it scares me inside... No matter the words in my head...

I tell myself to believe..
But I don't have the confidence to go on...

For the pain in my heart...I hope it will clear and heal again...
I don't have the strength for it anymore..

I'm wonder if I can achieve my dream to be a successful person one day..
I'm on the edge of fear today, feeling I can't go on...
I'm like a bird that's doubting of leaping up coz I'm afraid to fall...
Can I make it through it I, keep asking this on my mind...
For each step I take, my fear keeps on coming back, how would I deal with these all...???😢😢😢

THAT WOMAN...

...

Girl : " Sudah laa..malas nak cakap..Bye! "
Boy : " But we just started..Hmm Okey then...Text me later.."

Girl : " Why the hell did you stop replying? "
Boy : " Did You just said goodbye before? "

She is a problem..
She is forever a problem.

If she said no! It's probably a " YES "
If she said yes! It's probably a " NO "

If you hurt her..She will cried..
If she hurts you..She will cried..

She can't be understanood..
Doesn't matter how good a writer could be..He could not ever describes a " WOMAN "

She is a peoblem that always needs to be solved... 
You solved her today.. She'll got another problem for the next day..There's no end for that..

Knowing her is more about discovery..

Discover a 12 years old children inside a 20 years old woman.. 
A cry baby inside a wicked witch.. 
A fragile creature inside an independent woman..

Define her " goodbye " as " come here I need you "...
Define her " I'm okay " as " please take me with you "...

She is very timid..
So she learnt how to smile...
There are so many things she cannot tell her closest friend...
That woman’s heart is full of tears...
She is smiling but is actually crying..

You can't just understand her for a year or decade..
You just have to stay there.. Bear with their weird behaviour and give your heart and soul to this psychopath creature..

Discover them.. Find the treasure inside her mind..
Take out the diamond inside her broken heart...
Be patient.. Thats all...

ANAK KANDUNG SULUH BUDIMAN

Alhamdulillah..Kawan satu sekolah kini dah jadi teman di Universiti yang sama..Even, berlainan bidang, tetapi tetap berada di bawah langit yang sama..Setelah menjadi penuntut di Pusat Tingkatan 6 Mod 1 SMK Taman Mahsuri (kini dikenali sebagai Kolej Tingkatan 6, Kulim, Kedah)..Kami meneruskan pengembaraan mencari ilmu di Universiti Pendidikan Sultan Idris..Pada 1 September 2016, we are officially "ANAK KANDUNG SULUH BUDIMAN" !

Dari kiri : Mukmin, Adli, Shamsul, Husna, Zaty, Irayu, Arif, Huzaifah dan Faizul

Jejaka Melayu terakhir import dari Mahsurians..😍

Selfie pertama sebagai "Anak Kandung Suluh Budiman"